Day 18...Letting My Pen Cry

Soul Ties

by

Ebony Farashuu

Consumed by
Thoughts of
What could have been
Should have been
Would
Have
Been…

Sure would feel good to sin
With you right now.

I’m being honest
To lie serves no purpose
God knows my heart
And in knowing
The truth is abundantly clear…

I let him go with no fear
But each tear
Reminds me that I’m physically alone.

And as strong as I wanna be
I can’t pretend to condone the breaking of my heart.

He was a part of me…

I feel his pain
Like

A phantom appendage
Long ago amputated.

My bravado has mutated
Into momentary weakness.

I keep telling myself that I’m human

That
It’s okay to cry…

That
As time goes by
This will get easier…

I trust God to see me through
So why do I still want to boo hoo
When he crosses my mind?

Why is it so hard to be strong
One hundred percent of the time?

Why is this one percent
So much stronger than the other ninety-nine?

Sometimes I wish he would harden my heart
And loosen this constrictive twine

That ties our souls…

copyright 4/8/10

Ebony Farashuu